I am writing to remind you of things you already know. You are a spiritual being having a human experience. Your essence is Love and Light. Knowing this, anything that makes you sink or cave in, feel bad about yourself, or want to hide is a result of being emotionally triggered; and this reaction is completely related to the persona you are trying to uphold (your pride) rather than about your true essence.
Everyone makes mistakes, and you will have the opportunity to learn from your unskillful behavior throughout your life. These times are not occasions to judge yourself. Rather, they are chances to learn and grow. Remember, it is only judgment of yourself and others that causes you to be self-absorbed and to suffer.
If you are collapsing inside, for what are you blaming yourself? Name it. Forgive yourself. Re-frame it as a growth opportunity, and let it go. There are things you will regret doing or saying (or not doing or saying), but these regrets don’t define you. Unskillful choices do not mean anything about who you are. Rather, they reflect your state of mind at the time; and your state of mind is always changing. Your true essence cannot be threatened, marred, or destroyed. This moment is new and fresh, and you can choose again.
How might you treat yourself with respect and kindness right now? How might you make your own day better?
Remember, this moment is an opportunity to connect to Love and so to live into the fullness of who you are.
As always, do what best awakens you to Love,
Your Inner Wisdom